Alone..

sit alone in my room tears welling in my eye
i cant help but feel my life is passing me by
i cry cry and cry some more but nothing seems to work
all i am doing is upsetting myself and driving me bisurk
i dont deserve this life i dont deserve to be me
why cant i just rot alone or walk into the sea
no one sees me hurting or knows what to say
i thought i did myself proud for what i done today
being brave is very hard and not easy to come by
but now all i am doing is questioning myself and cant work out why
for world is just a big scarey place with loads of random people in
i feel like hanging from a tree having my bits dumped or binned
i love my family alot i do to the moon and back
but all i am to everyone is just a bit of slack
i wish i was normal so people may even want me
but no one seems to want me or take me as i be

If I Wasn't Me..

If i wasnt Me, do you know what i would like to be!?

I would like to be a dolphin swimming in the deep blue sea

an animal so intellegent and so beautiful to see

If i wasnt me, do you what i would be?

a white tiger prowling through the depths of the jungle

pouncing and growling and hunting through the big open jungle

If i wasnt me do you what i would be?

I would like to be a killer whale riding the crashing waves

for being a giant animal is great and at least i would be brave

If i wasnt me do you know what i would be?

i would be a rabbit running wild and free

reproducing every day is the best way to be

If i wasnt me do yo what i would be?

i would be a wasp or a big bumble bee

to come find you and sting you till you beg for mercy

Out of all the animals and creatures i'd like to be, i have to pick one and which would i choose!?

if i had to be an animal i would pick a Orca Killer Whale for they are pretty big and powerful and i could then be something other than me!

why are things difficult...?

why are things so difficult for me to be what i am
for now i seem invisible what happened to little old sam?
things have changed not for good but i guess for the worse
i feel as thought i have been hit with something maybe even a curse?
i am not well and i am not better i just keep going down hill
i am smoking so much more than i used to because it can kill
but i dont know why i try to do it when i scared and dont really want to die
its a stupid thing that is and i keep trying to ask myself why
but never can i find the answer to carry on and be myself anymore
i look and feel as thought i have been battling so many wars
that i just want to give in and let them people win now
i think of what i used to be and what i have become i hope i can go back some how
but for now this needs fixing and sorted so they can go back to what they used to be
i want to fit in i want to be free of this curse that has been placed upon me

The Way I Feel

i feel lost and confused
empty and used
why you ask me
i havent got a clue
why things have to be this way
and tell me that everything will be OK?
why do people have to sit there and lie
but even though i ask that i will never know why
for most people are generally hurtful.

its annoying becaues i get lied to day in day out
and its always later on that it comes about
what have i done to people for them to be this way
and at times i feel i will never be ok!
for im scared to believe in a friend or a best friend
because the others in my past who drive me around the bend
i dont understand why people have to pick little old me
but then things are the way they should be?
why in life is there these pain in the arse obsitcles!!?

...written 15th august 2007 ...

This is based upon what i was feeling at this point in my life,

Me...

this is me this is my life
will anyone take me 2 be a wife?
im often sad and i am quite a miserable cow
whats made me this way, why and how?!

im all over the place, myself and head
i feel at times im dreaming in bed
can anyone hear my calls my plea
for someone 2 help and direct lil old me

i cant and dont seem to wanna talk
because if i do it makes me walk
i feel like i wanna bury and hide
what im feeling inside

i feel so alone and confused inside
can anyone help me put my feelings aside
i really want to change and feel brand new
but all i can think is what i knew

i feel there is someone or something inside
tearing me apart and make me feel i want to hide
why am i like this i ask all the time
but all i do is cry and whine

why do i feel useless and alone
but when i talk about how i feel people moan
i cannot confess how i feel right now
even if i did what would become of me now?!!




written 10.08.07 based upon what i felt and saw within my self

... Poetry In Motion ...

Hello and welcome to poetry in motion!

here you can view and read my poetry that i write in various 'moods'.
i have been writing or trying to keep a note of my writing for a few years now. I have written various things over the years, most of what i have written i have written about myself and how i feel or what is going on or just feeling low i put pen to paper regardless of the outcome!
i enjoy writing, and in a way it is a shame i just write when i am down, depressed and miserable, but i guess thats when i write the good stuff the meaningful to me stuff, even if others dont always agree with what i have written etc.
i havent thought about sharing everything until now, so this is a biggish step for me to actually share with you, random people! *lol*

It would help if i was to recieve some comments, followers, or just anything in general really, it be nice to get some perspective on my writing instead of me saving it and reading it back to myself in few months time, as in a way i kind of waste my little talents that i have.
Looking forward to seeing some new visitors and new followers etc.