Alone..

sit alone in my room tears welling in my eye
i cant help but feel my life is passing me by
i cry cry and cry some more but nothing seems to work
all i am doing is upsetting myself and driving me bisurk
i dont deserve this life i dont deserve to be me
why cant i just rot alone or walk into the sea
no one sees me hurting or knows what to say
i thought i did myself proud for what i done today
being brave is very hard and not easy to come by
but now all i am doing is questioning myself and cant work out why
for world is just a big scarey place with loads of random people in
i feel like hanging from a tree having my bits dumped or binned
i love my family alot i do to the moon and back
but all i am to everyone is just a bit of slack
i wish i was normal so people may even want me
but no one seems to want me or take me as i be

For My Bunny My Best Friend

Nibbles (RIP 3.06.05 to 08.04.07)

Nibbles my lovely lil rabbit
why did god come and take you away
i miss you more each day,
why does things end this way?

it feels it was only yesterday i held you in my hands
i would bring u back if only i had a few magic wands
i am sorry i havent really said goodbye
i dont want to and i dont know why

you were the best friend a young woman could ever have!
no other rabbit or person comes close to what we had!
i talked to you as if you were human
although you never replied, but thats because you cannot talk!

i miss them little kisses you always gave us
it feels as thought i often feel you licking again
i hope u knew how much i loved you when i wasnt around
i know i should had taken you to preston, but i wasnt aloud

i still came back and you was always excited to see me
just wish you was still here so i can hug thee
your always in my heart and most certainly in my mind
thinking about you and the things we shared helps me unwind

i got you on the 3rd of june
i was so excited and lucky to have had you
thanks for being a great pal to me and my family
just a shame that we will have to miss you now for all eternity

Written 14th july 2007

this is a poem i wrote for my Bunny/Best Friend Nibbles, i got him when he was a baby and he sat in the palm of my hands.. he was tiny, dearly missed to this day..

This is Nibbles, i got him on the 3rd June 2005 just a few days after my 18th Birthday.

This is Nibbles bit bigger, a few months or so before he died

This is a video that i made of Nibbles's images, and used a song from Oliver & Company a disney film, admittedly about a cat, but the song was meaningful to me and Nibbles, as i said he was my best friend.

For My Nanny Lee (RIP 21.06.1940 - 06.03.1996)

wow 11 years have kinda flew by
all i seem to want to know is why
you left so soon without a proper goodbye
well now your safe up in the sky up so high

its a shame i dont remember much about you
but mum fills me in the bits that she knew
i was young when you had fell asleep and never woke up
but now i wish you was here to see me grow up

i know you are one of gods angel now
and i can seem to say is wow
i hope you found our kimberley up in the sky
and hope you are both looking down on us from up so high

you are always going to be my nanny lee
i guess sometimes things have to be
we all miss you and wish you hadn't left
but maybe sometimes we think it might had been for the best

goodnight gods angel up so high
when i look up at the stars i think of you in the sky
the sky is blue and the clouds are white
but without you blimey it bites!


written 25th june 2007

..I wrote this whilst i was thinking about my Nanny Lee.. although i dont remember much about her, i did my best! (i was 9 when she died)

Below are some pictures that i made with a website called Imikimi.